Favorably Fashioned

I have always felt that God fashioned me for greatness. Not fame, recognition, power or wealth. But greatness. That is why, I think, I have always, always, struggled with mediocrity. Don't the greatest obstacles come to hinder us from our greatest purpose?

I was intended for greatness. Greatness in thought, in deed, in motherhood, in marriage...and here I am, with my two-year-old in the background playing rocketships, my husband just now in the shower three minutes later than I had wanted to leave for church, left feeling completely unsatisfied and unsatisfying.

I was fashioned for greatness, and that is a truth that I have always held firm to...I have always expected greatness in return. I have always felt a need, a yearn, an emptiness that could only be filled when I was so aware of my inability to reach that greatness without the reality of the cross. The reality of the cross.

I am fashioned for greatness, but I am the art of mediocrity.